Human Again (Playlist)

Enjoy the playlist.;D

"Fire"

Open heart surgery
That is what you do to me
Cut me up, set me free
That is what you do to me

Now I'm walking in, walking into fire
I'm walking into fire with you
I'm walking in, walking into fire
When I walk, into you
I'm walking in, walking into fire
I'm walking into fire with you
I'm walking in, walking into fire
When I walk, into you

Into you into you into you into you into you
Into you into you into you into you into you

Heart attack up your sleeve
You can make me believe
That I will grow from the ground
After you burn me down

You burn me up
You burn me up
You burn me up
And I love it
You burn me up
You burn me up
You burn me up
And I love it

"This Is War"

It's a wonder at all that I'm alive
It's a wonder at all that I'm still standing
It's a wonder at all that I survived the war 

Between your, between your heart and mine
Between your, between your heart and mine

I won't surrender
I will fight better
You lock me out, you knock me down
But I will find my way around
I won't surrender
This is war

It's a wonder at all that I can see
It's a wonder at all that the sky is not falling down
It's a wonder at all that I decide to breathe
Anymore...anymore...anymore

I won't surrender
I will fight better
You lock me out, you knock me down
But I will find my way around
I won't surrender
This is war
This is war

This is war, this is war
I will run until I can't run anymore
Someone's got to lose
It's not gonna be this girl this time

"Do It Now"

Sitting in the back of the bus
Talking about nothing, oh we're talking about us
Watching as the world goes hammering on
Hammering on

You say that you've got nothing left
There's nothing left in you to find
You're gonna ride it out gonna wait it out
Living to die, you're living to die

No one's gonna wait for you
No one's gonna wait for you

So do it now
Do it right now
Don't waste a minute on the darkness and the pity sitting in your mind and
Do it right now
Do it right now

Everything will stop on a dime
Everything will crash into itself in good time
Do you want to beat your own heart beat your own heart
Or leave it behind
Leave it behind


I'm gonna get up I'm gonna get right out of my bed, get out of my bed
You're gonna stand up, you're gonna stand right up again stand right up again
I'm gonna get up I'm gonna get out of my bed, get out of my head
You're gonna stand up, you're gonna stand up
You're gonna stand up
You're gonna stand up

"I'm Through"

I'm going out again tonight
The first time in the longest time
He holds the door and holds my hand
But doesn't feel like you

We laugh at all the people in
The restaurant across from us
He talks a lot but not too much
But doesn't sound like you

It's all because of you that I'm through
It's all because of you that I'm all through

I know there'll come a time again
When everything will fit right in
And I won't have to see your face
In strangers on the street

But I would rather feel the sting
Than never to have felt a thing
I'll always know you were the one
To rip me from the ground

It's all because of you that I'm through
It's all because of you that I'm all through

"Blood Brothers"

If you knew me would you save that seat for me
If you knew me would you finally let me free
We're all blood, we're all blood, blood brothers
We're all blood, we're all blood, blood brothers

If you loved me would you hold onto my hand
If you loved me would you finally understand
That we're all blood, we're all blood, blood brothers
We're all blood, we're all blood, blood brothers

What you need, what you need I need too
What you are, what you are I am too
'cause we're all the same under a different name
We're all blood, we're all blood, blood brothers
We're all blood, we're all blood, blood brothers

If you knew me would you lift me from the ground
If you loved me would you even hear me make a sound
We're all blood, we're all blood, blood brothers
We're all blood, we're all blood, blood brothers

What you need, what you need I need too
What you are, what you are I am too
'cause we're all the same under a different name
We're all blood, we're all blood, blood brothers
We're all blood, we're all blood, blood brothers

We're all blood, we're all blood, blood brothers

"Black And Blue"

Oh I think I got you figured out
Boy I think I know what you are all about
Finally I can finally see
You pull the darkness right down over me
But now I see

Everybody knows that I'm a mess
Everybody knows you stole the heart from out my chest
Everything you ever said was a lie
You're hiding behind your sweet your sweet goodbyes

I'm black and blue
'cause I fell for you
You said you never would let me go
Oh how could I ever know

I'm black and blue
And in love with you
You said, you never would let me fall
You never would let me fall, but I'm falling
You never would let me fall, you never would let me fall, but I'm falling

Oh I know I'm never gonna stop
I keep burning time away until I hit the top
One day I'll wake up and take up to the open skies
And I'll be the one with all the sweet goodbyes

I'm black and blue
'cause I fell for you
You said you never would let me go
Oh how could I ever know

I'm black and blue
And in love with you
You said, you never would let me fall
You never would let me fall, but I'm falling
You never would let me fall, you never would let me fall, but I'm falling

Falling, falling
Over and over, over and over again
I'm always falling
Over and over

But I'll get up, I'll make it
I need some time to unbreak it
I feel like, I'm falling, I'm falling far away from you
It's what I need to do

Black and blue and in love with you
Black and blue and in love with you
You said, you never would let me fall
You never would let me fall, but I'm falling
You never would let me fall
You never would let me fall, but I'm falling
You never would let me fall
You never would let me fall, but I'm falling

I'm falling
Black and blue
It's what I need to do

"Ribbons"

I'm sitting pretty and I don't know why
I found somebody, said he'd make me fly
Wrapped me up in ribbons then he left me to die
Wrapped me up in ribbons then he left me to die

Told me he'd hold me 'til there was no more
Told me that he'd love me from the top to the floor
Wrapped me up in ribbons then he went for the door
Wrapped me up in ribbons then he went for the door

All the time he takes are the words that he breaks
All the time he takes are the words that he breaks

I'm not flying
I'm not flying am I
I'm not flying so damn high in the sky
I'm not flying
I'm not flying am I
I'm not flying am I

You look so pretty in the dark of night
But I'm getting wise in the early light
I can see you falling like a homemade kite
I can see you falling like a homemade kite

You put your sunday best on for us all
Painting up a promise that you know will fall
Wrap me in your ribbons tie me to the wall
Wrap me in your ribbons tie me to the wall

All the time he takes are the words that he breaks
All the time he takes are the words that he breaks

I'm not flying
I'm not flying am I
I'm not flying so damn high in the sky
I'm not flying
I'm not flying am I
I'm not flying am I

You walk on everybody
You walk on everyone
You walk right up and you ask me to dance
You ask me to dance
You ask me to dance then you walk away

I'm not flying
I'm not flying am I
I'm not flying so damn high in the sky
I'm not flying
I'm not flying am I
I'm not flying am I

"How We Love"

I knew a man who was afraid to love
To lay his heart on the bathroom rug
He drank his coffee in the same old mug
And sat in silence 'til the world fell numb

Until the day when a girl came by
She had eyes like the rising tide
He felt a sharpness deep inside
The kind of ache that can't be satisfied

We hate the rain when it fills up our shoes
But how we love when it washes our cars
We love to love when it fills up the room
But when it leaves oh we're cursing the stars

So he turned to the radio
And he went to a picture show
Tried to find someone else who knows
All the hurt that a heart can hold

She smelled like cinnamon and winter clove
And sparked like firewood inside a stove
Wanted to ask her just to sit and stay
Instead he watched as she walked away

We hate the rain when it fills up our shoes
But how we love when it washes our cars
We love to love when it fills up the room
But when it leaves oh we're cursing the stars

We hate the rain when it fills up our shoes
But how we love when it washes our cars
We love to love when it fills up the room
But when it leaves oh we're cursing the stars

"Palm Of Your Hand"

Oh boy it's over you got me
You shot me right between the eyes
I'm sober, I'm over the haze of never knowing
If I can still feel what is real
Will someone punch me out

And oh boy I know boy
I need a breakdown
Can you crush me

In the palm of your hand
The palm of your hand
There's nobody else who can
You know you crush me
In the palm of your hand

Oh boy you wake me and shake me
I'll break the bullet in my hand
I attack but you fight back
The redder the love the better
You make it all ache
I'm breathing, I'm breathing life again

And oh boy I know boy I need a breakdown
Can you crush me

In the palm of your hand
The palm of your hand
There's nobody else who can
You know you crush me
In the palm of your hand
The palm of your hand
There's nobody else who can
You know you crush me
In the palm of your hand

You make me want to be a human again
Can I be your only human again
You bring me back
You bring me back in pieces in the

Palm of your hand
The palm of your hand
There's nobody else who can
You know you crush me
In the palm of your hand
The palm of your hand
There's nobody else who can
You know you crush me crush
In the palm of your hand

"Ghost"

Do you remember when the walls fell
Do you remember the sound that the door made when you closed it on me
Do you know that I went down to the ground
Landed on both my broken-hearted knees

I didn’t even cry
'Cause pieces of me had already died

I’m a ghost
Haunting these halls
Climbing up walls that I never knew were there
And I’m lost
Broken down the middle of my heart, heart
I’m broken down the middle of my heart, heart, heart

You know you make me a ghost
You make me a ghost

I’m an invisible disaster
I keep trying to walk but my feet don’t find the solid ground
It’s like living in a bad dream
I keep trying to scream but my tongue has finally lost its sound

I’ve got to say goodbye
To the pieces of me that have already died

I’m a ghost
Haunting these halls
Climbing these walls that I never knew were there
And I’m lost
Broken down the middle of my heart, heart
I’m broken down the middle of my heart, heart, heart

You know you make me a ghost
Oh, you make me a ghost
You make me a ghost
(You take the breath all away from me, you take it away)
You make me a ghost

I don’t cry
I don’t try anymore

I’m a ghost
I’m a ghost
And I’m lost
Broken down the middle of my heart, heart
I’m broken down the middle

I’m a ghost
Haunting these halls
Climbing up walls that I never knew were there
And I’m lost
Broken down the middle of my heart, heart
I’m broken down the middle of my heart, heart, heart

You know you make me a ghost
You make me a ghost

"In The Sea"

I feel it in my skin, I feel it through my bones
Your fingertips are falling far from where I know
I try to pin you down but you move like a dream
I want to find you but you dropped me in the sea

In the sea in the sea in the sea in the sea
You dropped me
In the sea in the sea in the sea in the sea

No no don't rescue me
I like the salt water sting
It feels so good to feel
It feels so good just to feel something
In the sea in the sea in the sea in the sea

You move so softly in the middle of the night
Like a cocoon in sheets you wrap you up so tight
Remember how we used to tangle up and breathe
Now you're so far away you roll me in the sea

In the sea in the sea in the sea in the sea
You dropped me
In the sea in the sea in the sea in the sea

No no don't rescue me
I like the salt water sting
It feels so good to feel
It feels so good just to feel something
In the sea in the sea in the sea in the sea

Oh oh oh...

No no don't rescue me
I like the salt water sting
It feels so good to feel
It feels so good just to feel something
In the sea in the sea in the sea in the sea

"Keep Warm"

Eyes on the prize and I can't capsize this time
'cause there's somebody else in my boat
Used to live alone in a tomb I made my own
But now I've gone and given up my coat

And it's cold outside but I'm just fine
You are mine to keep warm

Down down down I go
On a road that I don't know
And I ain't got a thing in my bag
Some things you can not plan
Like your hand in mine
Just put your hand in mine

And it's cold outside but I'm just fine
You are mine to keep warm
Yeah it's cold outside but I'm just fine
You are mine to keep warm

Sables and wine till the end of time you give me much more than that
Diamond rings and beautiful things
Oh you give me much more than that
When you smile

You are mine to keep warm
And it's cold outside but I'm just fine
You are mine to keep warm

"End Of The World"

When the sun runs out and there's no one to save you
Will you go to our favorite place and try to say goodbye

At the end of
At the end of the world
Will you find me
Will you find me
At the end of
At the end of the world
Will you find me
So that we can go together

When the moon breaks up and the tide goes out of control
Will you find me in the water and swim me to the stars

At the end of
At the end of the world
Will you find me
Will you find me
At the end of
At the end of the world
Will you find me
So that we can go together

Together...

When the sun breaks up and there's no one to save you

At the end of
At the end of the world
Will you find me
Will you find me
At the end of
At the end of the world
Will you find me
Will you find me
Will you find me
Will you find me

Ref: Lyrics Playlist Credits

Popping Pills

Soundcloud: My newest hangout. Where I can float in the clouds and perform office work at the same time (nyaha)

One can never go wrong with a P!nk song. Her songs are relatable, empowering and always with the ooomph attitude.

Just Like a Pill
by: P!nk


JUST LIKE A PILL By: P!nk

I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me
I think I took too much
I'm crying here, what have you done?
I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support,
There's a shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine,
'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again
But she's being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better,
You keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill

I haven't moved from the spot where you left me
This must be a bad trip
All of the other pills, they were different
Maybe I should get some help

I can't stay on your life support,
There's a shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine,
'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again
But she's being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better,
You keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better,
You keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill

I can't stay on your life support,
There's a shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine,
'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again
But she's being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better,
You keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill


And I hope you'll get the LSS (Last Song Syndrome) like I did. ;D

destructive distraction

I've been updating my playlist with lots of  Ingrid Michaelson and Christina Perri  (from their latest albums LightsOut and Head or Heart) and  a little bit Cher Lloyd for the Pizzaz...but this post is not about them (haherm!)

.. like all surprises, life threw an unexpected song from the ever relatable artist Taylor Swift. 

Distraction sometimes are destructive, and even if (sometimes) we already know the consequences (which we may not like), we still welcome it...

"I feel something so right doing the wrong thing,I feel something so wrong doing the right thing" (Counting Stars by One Republic)

must be normal to feel and think such because obviously we are not alone (nyahehe)...

Welcome Distraction (lyrics)


I got a little thing I call self control
'Cause I get a little crazy 
When I let too much go
Love's a little messy and you are too
Right now I'm scared of both of you
I laugh and I play and I wasn't gonna stray 
Swore I'd never let a man in my way

You're the last thing I needed today

And I don't know 
Where I lost control
And couldn't take it any longer
Must have been somewhere between 
Your smile and the way you say my name
I can't win so I give in 
The more I fight it just get's stronger
You're an inconvenient kind of satisfaction
Welcome distraction, welcome distraction

Gone and spilled my coffee 
Tryna get to the phone
'Cause it might be you
You just never know
Can't talk to my friends 
Without you coming up
It's even kind of cute 
The way you cuss
I wrote your name down 
A hundred thousand times
'Cause it looks so good 
Right next to mine

You're the last thing I needed tonight

And I don't know 
Where I lost control
And couldn't take it any longer
Must have been somewhere between 
Your smile and the way you say my name
I can't win so I give in 
The more I fight it just get's stronger
You're an inconvenient kind of satisfaction
Welcome distraction

I'm acting like a girl 
With nothing to lose
When did I stop caring 
About anything but you

And I don't know 
Where I lost control
And couldn't take it any longer
Must have been somewhere between 
Your smile and the way you say my name
I can't win so I give in 
The more I fight it just get's stronger
You're an inconvenient kind of satisfaction

Welcome distraction, welcome distraction



...are you one of us?

...reality changers

I am not kind of a person with easy to fall feelings. Yes,I am appreciative of everything around me, from natural to weird things. I like a lot of things but I do keep a few that I love. 

Here are few things about the Narvaez family,great for start up.

Alexa Narvaez

Jorge-26 a father  of two who worked his way through college making him the first in the family to earn a diploma(imagine him studying, doing homework and changing diapers at night)He is a founding member of Reality Changers, a tutoring program for scholars. 

Alexa-8  so into art and minerals

Eliana-4 chunky monkey who loves candy and blueberries

They were younger in their videos.

It all started with a video of father and sleepy Alexa singing a cover of the song Home by Edward Sharp and the magnetic zeroes uploaded December 31,2010 (few days after,the video went viral)

Nancy with Eli

Mom and Dad are separated and so half of the week the kids stay with Jorge(dad) and the rest with Nancy(mom). They had Alexa when they’re still in high school when Jorge’s still 18.

Despite being separated, Jorge and Nancy remain to be good friends.Nancy has a boyfriend and Jorge now have Gisela (Girlfriend). They co-parent 50/50 literally

Alexa and Eli are normal kids…they have tantrums and even accidents.

I admire how these kids were raised with patience and discipline even if they knew that there are lots of fans around the world that will definitely spoil them.

No cable channels at home,they use Netflix (that way Jorge can monitor what shows were being watched)…up to now,there is still no cure for the Bieber fever and Jorge do have to brace himself.

The kids are exposed to art exhibits and music fairs. They frequently visit parks and beaches.

Candies aren’t freely given and the kids clean their own room .

Eliana (Eli) Narvaez

No coffee.no soda. (how was that?)…one sure sign Jorge’s on the right track is that the kids demand to be given a salad for dinner.

This is not a perfect family, and that’s what makes it perfect.Life is an everyday affair and it goes on and on.  

All in, conversation within the family is a rope that keeps it together.

Know them more by visiting their Youtube channel Realitychangers. Be gentle on the replay button though. ;)

P.S. Reality Sunday means the video footage is one take and uploaded uploaded as is ; Check out too how he plays and handle the guitar.

 

...reality with Reality Changers

Negative emotions are like cancer. They eat you up.

I’ve been feeling so down since January of this year and I am so aware of it. In my search for an effective pick-me-upper I found none. But my newsfeed in Facebook is flooding with picture quotes from the pages I liked. And believe me, it might sound weird but they all seemed to match the situation and feelings I’m in.I’ve read books and watched movies. The messages were comforting and I was consoled but never uplifted until I’ve stumbled upon this video in facebook . A father with his daughters singing Christina Perri’s A thousand Years surely did brought a genuine smile on my face. It’s an ultimate bonding moment and I wanted to see more but there’s no link and so in my stalker mode I searched them in Youtube. After being so patient in typing possible keywords, opening every search hit and following links, I arrived at the channel realitychangers. Watching few of their vlogs (video blogs), I knew then that this family will be on my ‘love at fist sense” list.

I was looking for happiness through people with the same situation as mine ,through songs that evoke the emotions that I have, through the usual  things and It’s not effective for me in the long run. When people are so into Pink’s song “just give me a reason”, I was singing her song “Blow Me”at the top of my voice (in my head). The script’s six degrees of separation and breakeven were also on repeat on my playlist together with Taylor Swift’s The story of us along with other similar songs. Then, what now? What’s next? I see myself stuck in the bitter and reverse bittering stage. I can’t remain there forever and so I end up wiping all the songs in my phone and downloaded Realitychangers’ video to the full capacity of my memory card. I viewed the videos once online and I am watching them again and again in my phone.

 

Never did I thought that something I cannot relate to can bring such joy in me. That video showing up in newsfeed was meant to be. I didn’t know much about their story and I have many questions popping in my head like “Where’s the mother?” “What?25 years old? Same age as me?”,the answers to these questions were not readily available until I watched all their videos. I considered it a month of therapy. Now, I am always looking forward to the next video upload. 

This family inspires me in so many ways. It is right then that life doesn’t have the same answer to same situations (no formula), instead there could be a same answer to different situations (different test, different difficulty but same answers). A single person and a family on different situations have found the same answers to whatever situation they are into.

People may say what’s so new about video blogging, it’s just daily life recorded n video. Everyone else is struggling and everybody is striving like them. That’s it! Sharing your story to the world is a healthy thing for them and us. By knowing you are not alone is the ultimate relief you can ever have. But it is in sharing how you overcame the negative things that you bring a whole new light to some gloomy parts in the world. This is how we should inspire, not just by telling but by showing. The words are there and our life is a proof that those words do work.

I want to share this family to you.

Alexa,Jorge and Eliana Narvaez

I am still drafting my blog about introducing Narvaez Family to people that are new to their vlog. I hope ‘twill be helpful. Just a few details to lead you on.Hope it will be on my next blog.