The truth shall set you free.
This has been repeated many times and heard everywhere but today, I experienced my own kind of "truth setting me free" moment. Just by acknowledging the truth, it seemed that a heavy thing has been lifted off my chest or more likely like strings binding my lungs have been cut. I do not know if you get the feeling I am trying to explain but....what is sure is that: It is liberating!
I did not expect it to happen, this is one of the few crazy things I did and usually I experience regret except for this one.
What I know for sure is that I've been missing this person for some time and I reached that point where I badly terribly miss this person so so much that without much thinking I sent the message I forbid myself to use since time forgotten.
All my life I've been always scared of doing and saying things I haven't given time to think of. Most of the time I end up arguing with my thoughts and forever thinking the pros and cons and no matter what those are I do not do anything. I just let it be. Leave things on pending mode.
Now I finally said it.(to someone outside my family and friend circle) I finally accepted that I miss him and I do not feel terrible about the fact that I miss him. ( I do feel terrible missing him though).
I do not know what kind of force coaxed me into sending that message, but whatever it is, I am thankful.
The truth should not bind us, it should set us free.
Honesty is still the best policy...and the best kind of honesty is honesty with ourselves. (because who would want to live with a somekind of liar every single day)
This is my moment of truth, what's yours?