...from meltdowns to spring at last!

Ever had mood swings? I have them almost all of the time. Life is all sunshiny! Question is, are we benefiting from it? A frozen something wouldn't want too much sunshine as how plants rejoice in it's existence. Melting down is a horrible feeling..you just seem to have dropped an identity you are maintaining and reveal just how much water content you have.

10 days is way too long to suffer but tadah! I am so hopeful like the springtime. I think I've always known that I'd be catching a happy virus on the 27th and will be developing a negative one on 17s (seventeens). Looking back at those ten days, I realized I was over acting too much (over+too= OA to the nth power). 

I am laughing at myself and embarrassed at the same time and so I have to look for other things to blame it on to so that I can gain back my stance.

My main culprits are:

Boredomsphere-  holidays meant more time to do nothing. Few activities or none at all makes you more aware of your surroundings,say, you realize how much dust your room was able to accumulate, a chip on your nail polish or the nail cutter that is missing or hiding. You know you got to do something but then you won't because boredom is a byproduct of laziness. (here goes laziness again)

Too much sunlight/light- Exposing myself to too much light all of a sudden flicks my grumpy switch on (like a witch afraid of the sun eh?) . When there's too much light, you squint, then your eyebrows meet like that of an annoyed person and poof! you're grumpy all of a sudden. Might be that our moods go with our facial expressions and not the other way round. Next time, let's try to smile while looking at bright lights (like those we see on movies) and see if we can fake it 'till we make it.

Facebook photos- Facebook is my hangout. Yes! Yes! So much for browsing and refreshing my FB newsfeed (or in my most honest case- FB STALKING) every now and always. From posts of Friends and almost lovers to lovers of almost lovers (how come they're all happy while you can't find some for your own?).When you see photos of your friends on vacay or just plain happy with their careers, you'll start wishing you had the same.

Fact is: Pictures say a thousand things.

More fact: There are millions of things behind those pictures. (which we do not usually know). We think they are having a good life ever and us always having the worst times ever when in truth we are only seeing a chunk of a bigger story. Why so? Would people upload pictures of them on their worst times? A selfie with stuffy red nose and bloody red eyes from excessive crying? I don't think so. So let's think thrice before lashing at life for its alleged unfairness. There is more to what our eyes can see. Afterall the world they say is not two dimensional....it has a third dimension.

Starvation and/or Dehydration- Studies show that grumpiness can also be associated with hunger or thirst. So once you become aware you are feeling less than your normal good mood, try gulping on lotsa drinking water or ask yourself what you had for breakfast. If your answer is : "I haven't broke my fast yet", then it's high time you start loving yourself by feeding it with good stuffs. No one loves someone who isn't able to love him/herself first. (Where in science did I get that?). I wonder why Grumpy (dwarf in Snow White) is grumpy, maybe he gets a smaller share on meals eh?

Hormones- If we can't seem to pinpoint the reason of our grumpiness, we can all blame it on our hormones. PMS anyone? Be it Pre-Menstrual Syndrome or Pre-Menopausal Syndrome (which are the same..hehehe) we all say PMSiiiinggg together with our hissing!

A mild rant version,though I’m seething on the insides

The right side of my hip hurts and it is the main culprit why I tossed and turned all night trying to find the most comfortable sleeping position I can manage. (and no, I wasn’t able to get a decent sleep all night to morn). I swear, I noted all the passing vehicles on the road just outside and even the footsteps of passersby that any attempt of burglary will be disappointed by me.  

Early morning came and the hustle and bustle grew with my irritated mood. Just when you managed to lull yourself to sleep, here comes a visitor with a very cheerful greeting of good mornings. Good vibes are in, and so was she. Of course ,Filipino tradition, it is rude not to offer something…coffee? Breakfast? Oh, and she opted for the coffee.. that means the person will be staying for more than five minutes.  People went in and out all throughout the day… and on ordinary days, that would be fine with me. But today wasn’t an ordinary one. I was having the triple H-aches and you wouldn’t really want to witness how that feels or how would that look like. 

I know visitors are good for a house…they brighten the aura of the house and makes it less haunty (if there’s such a word as haunty). Thank you for considering the house worthy of your presence and the people in it as worthy of your company. I just have one main concern though…please consider the other people in the house. Have they woken up yet? If not, then please lower down your voice.  Whether the person you are visiting is noisy all along, that is not permission for you to do the same.

Dawn to dusk to late evening, and people came and go.  I’ve heard every conversation that went outside. That is because (FYI), there’s only a thin division of plywood that separated my room from your conversation nook. Yes, yes…I heard every advice, facts and gossips conversed.  That is also because, I stayed in the room all day, waiting for the perfect moment to take my much deserved sleep, which to my own disappointment, never came.

I know, I could have aired my concern in your faces…but I know too, that you know I don’t do such thing. Confrontation is not my thing and I just don’t want to drag your happy atmosphere into my gloomy temper for the day.

My bottom line really is, may we be able to decipher when to lower down the volume of our voices. And if we don’t have volume adjustments on our voices, then it’s high time to have one.

  

Just so you’ll know,people with headaches are very sensitive/irritated to bright lights and loud noise. Those with hip aches don’t want to move much and would opt to stay put instead of coming out of their rooms and show you how irritated they are. Lastly, people with heartaches don’t know what they really feel…and they also don’t know how to express it. Some cry while laughing and some write a rant blog that looks like this.

Don’t get me wrong…I appreciate visitors (those with manners of course).

So here’s to hoping that I get a good night’s sleep tonight… (Please let me have one).

Kumbira 2013 -images

These were some of  the pictures I took during the KUMBIRA2013

Phew! I have to resize them one by one to speed up the uploading process. Should you want the high quality version, send me a fastmail at lotuspeopleeverywhere@gmail.com, I'd gladly give them to you.

Until Kumbira 2014. CIAO!