Thursday, March 27, 2014

Yes! Magazine April 2014

Yes! (insert jumping mini me here)

Yes! (insert crazy waving of arms)

Yes! (insert wide toothed smile here)

I cannot contain my poker face  when Enrique Gil  will be on the cover of Yes! Magazine April 2014 issue. The magazine issue for the month will be featuring an inside look on Gil’s house as well as that of Heart Evangelista's. A bonus would be Iya and Drew’s wedding and Lot Lot de Leon meeting her  Papa Don .

I just know that this issue's content will be flowing over the pages.

I’m definitely buying.! 


humble bumble bee

Butterflies always serve as inspiration for “not famous yet,but will be famous soon” defense. Remember the story of the caterpillar who envied the butterfly? Or  the one where the caterpillar was teased by fellow worms as being ugly and always eating ? The caterpillar spends the day munching on leaves,crawling,wraps itself in a cocoon and goes to sleep (to sleep?) and struggles to come out of it. There are many version of the butterfly story. Metamorphosis is always used as an effective theme for presentations and performances. It always inspire people that each has its own time to flourish and that we undergo stages to become beautiful creatures in sight and might. The “Overcome to become” state of thinking.That we may not understand fully what and why we undergo certain situations but we trust that it is part of a greater plan that is good and beneficial for us.

When I was younger, I always see myself like the caterpillar and always hopeful that I’d become a colorful big butterfly rather than the small yellow ones . As I grew older and became capable of pointing thoughts out intelligently (haherm!) and most of the time crazily, I realized I don’t want to associate my kind of life with butterflies  anymore. 

A butterfly flutters everywhere and I am the “first and forever” kind of person.  A flutterby just don’t fit my ideals maybe because I now seem to have established my preferences on some values. I don’t want to just flutter by, admired at, collected and displayed.

Now that I’m older, I wanted my life to be like that of a bumblebee, one that belongs to a community and has a specific part/task to do; one that contributes by getting a share of the work. A bumblebee that goes out in search of flowers to pollinate and brings precious nectar to a home that is waiting. One that stings when threatened (and if I sting, I will not die and that I can sting again). One that values hard work ,perseverance and experience.

A humblebee that is busy.  Yes, I wanted to be just like that.

“ aerodynamically, the bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly but the bumble bee doesn't know it so it goes on flying anyway”

Aerodynamically it cannot fly when compared to that of an airplane model because bumblebees have large bodies and small wings. Mechanically, it can, because its wings don’t glide (like that of an airplane). The wings beat about 200 times per second and please read more to know the secret of their flight.(by clicking here)

Because it doesn't know it cannot fly, It flies anyway: usually what hinders us from flying are the negative things people tell us and mostly the things we tell ourselves. Yes, sometimes, ignorance is a bliss. When you don’t know, you just do your best and continue doing your best.

And even if someone told the bees that they cannot fly, they will fly anyway:  so I’m saying do not let other people initially calculate your capabilities. They usually sum up your abilities by what they see (your frame, your brand name etc.) .  That is because they lack additional factors to consider in solving the equation to what’s your worth is. Give them the values but then, even if the values are given already, there is no fixed or general equation that can be used for in calculating. So when someone tells you “you can’t”, you try (first)! You know yourself way more than anyone else.

Like the flight of the bumblebee I’d like to live life like this. Full of enthusiasm (breathless but alive!) I grow older, I change perspective. As I experience more of life I realized there's a huge difference in merely "seeing life" than "actually living it". As life reveals its harshness,I pray that I won't take flight and leave my dreams behind..I pray that,just like a bumblebee,I will take flight against it and fight. (so help me God.)

P.S. The lifespan of a bumble bee might be shorter as that of 5 days (ooops!)* and so I'll just say, It's not the number of years you live but how you lived your years that matters. A life of quality and substance will leave a legacy that will last nthyears.

*a butterfly's lifespan ranges from 3-4 weeks to a maximum of a year.

Sunday, March 23, 2014

Single on Marriage

I've been sick these past few days and missed 2 major exams for the finals. Instead of worrying myself from unfinished projects,special exams to face and unfinished tasks at work which I cannot do anything as of that time, I tried to give in to taking long hours of sleep and doing nothing which was so so boring. Good thing I can watch TV from my cellphone. Bad thing is that, I kept on flipping from one channel to another on advertisement parts plus the shows and topics didn't interest me. (need I say too that it's late night already). I resorted to sticking with Hope Channel Philippines and surprisingly seriously listened to Pastor Lowell Teves of Filipino American SDA church .

He spoke to youths in what seemed like a conference held in Bukidnon.  He spoke of relationships,from the dangers and truths on relationships among young people to using phrases like "opening happiness" "the real thing" to elaborate the topic about premarital sex and love (he might've also used 'give in to your thirst'). It was very educating and I think we need more of that. We need more of constant reminders. Sadly I wasn't able to jot down notes about that. What I managed to jot down was about the marriage topic. 

The Five Stages of Marriage:

1.The Paradise Stage 
       where everything is perfect. This usually lasts 3 months from the wedding.

2.The Unmasking Stage
      disappointments and misunderstandings begin to creep in. You'll start wondering whether you married the right person or not and sometimes you'd think that you were wrong indeed. In the words of Ellen White "Never entertain the thought that your marriage was a mistake".
There is unmasking because in the courting stage people usually put their best foot forward ( pray that the other foot is a better one ). Always trying to impress (and forgot to show what are they when they are depressed and distressed).

3. Adjusting Stage
       This is the break-in period.  The talk,talk,understanding part. Where proper communication is highly stressed as a vital component in any relationship.
       a. Civil War Stage-where you argue in public (huh!?Best to argue at home I think)
       b. Home Front Stage- arguing at home.
When you argue at home, do not do it in front of your children. Children are very intelligent and observant (They learn from what they see and hear) and you wouldn't want them to think that their mother is 'idiot' and their father 'stupid'(just because they hear you say that to each other)

4. Enjoying or the Suffering Stage
This can be the dessert or the desert stage.
the DESERT stage


5.Sweet ending or the Bitter Stage
(and I was lost on this part)

It's good to have the stages numbered It gives a sense of control. Imagine jumbling all of those and I think that's what marriage is more about.

*I remember reading  The Compleat Marriage by  Nancy Van Pelt when I was in highschool (and forgot already what's in it,I just ran out of books to read that time). Listening to a Pastor from SDA church reminds me of home,we have so many books by PPHSDA books at home. From healthbooks to bible stories...OMG they literally supply good books.(now I'm off-topic,guess I'm not fully recovered yet)

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

the 15-minute coffee break

Things are getting more complicated at work, so is with time that seems not enough to complete the usual tasks. I do not know why, does time fly faster nowadays or is it just me working slow paced?

 Imagine picking up something and dropping it somewhere. (I mean literally drop!). That’s how I feel right now, not the picker/dropper but the thing picked and dropped. Shocked and feeling broken with the need to adapt fast and chase time, I do not have the time to fancy fix the cracks. Everything seems to take the red mark for *urgent and *important and I have to mentally number priorities. How do I sort all number 1 priorities?

Worrying is my number 1 pimple grower and in a matter of 6 hours I grew a few giving me more worries.
I’m at work! Shhhh! You might say, how come I’m busy and find time to post a blog entry. I just gave myself the 15minutes coffee break when a thought popped out while I was cracking numbers on my keyboard a while ago. You see, I was trying to assure myself that these time of pressure shall pass and later (hopefully sooner) all will be normal again. But would that be not too late to fix the cracks? Yes, this time shall pass and  sooner we shall be having another type/kind of time (a better or a not so better that what we have now) and as time continues to tick, we’ll be forever busy living the PM (present moment) and the cracks will remain as cracks until someone in the future will pick you and drop you again causing  the pieces to shatter.

It is so sad to think of such horrible future. (maybe it’s just my hormones raging for the day). I am consoling myself and it’s an unending row of feel good.not so good.feel good and not so good again .(All the more frustrating!) and poof! Just like someone picking up something and droppin’ it, Life dropped a thought on me drenching me that caused me to wake.

RFTD: 03.05.2014

Cracked? That’s good! It’s where the light gets in and it is where the water will seep in. These will nurture you causing you to grow.

There I go… now I feel better. I’m back to the numbers . CIAO.
I never thought blogging has the same effect as that of a mug of coffee.

*I wonder what kind would I be when I grow. Would I become a tree?or a flower? I just hope it’d be a tree that blooms flowers and bears fruits ;)